I am in the spirit for reflection at this time in my life. I must say that after some long hard analysis about my life. The unexpected turns that it has taken place have made me ask myself if I have any regrets about the decisions that I have made. If I have had to wonder if I had it all to do again would I do any of it differently? Sometimes I think back on things that I have said to people in my life that I l have loved that have moved across the veil and I most definately have regrets about things that I said that were unkind. I regret that I did not speak up enough in some cases. I do regret that I did not tell my parents enough how greatful that I am for giving me the very best that they have to offer though in the eyes of the rest of the world it may not have been enough. If they are seeing me from some place I hope that they know that the woman understands things that the child could not.
On the other hand without many of those life altering experiences I would not have become the woman that I am today. This life alters us in so many ways. I have had the misfortune in one way and fortune in another of meeting broken vessels that many of which can't repaired. I do not hate them because in many respects I am like them. When something has been broken sometimes even if it can be put together again it can never be returned to what it was. It is still useful and the beauty that it may have had is altered. By the conventional standard of this desposable society that we live in the vessel loses all beauty and is useless. To me the vessel not only has a use for some but the beauty deepens as the fractures and flaws give it a character that it did not have before. But that is just me, I guess.
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